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So today, i dropped acid. But it’s not even like I dropped acid. Its like I took 2 tabs of realization…

So today, i dropped acid.. lawl. hahah. It was kai’s birthday and it was random as shit how everything worked out. But I realized the most crazy shit today that would have never hit me if it didn’t happen like this. I’ve come to realization that as a person, you can only continue in life by your actions and your actions only. Nothing else matter, except by the way you conduct yourself. We were all put into each others lives for a reason. The reason we were put there is still to be found but it’s your job to find the reason why they were put into your life. The way each individual person handles a situation effects everyone around them. So as a human being, we need to focus on how we as one acts towards others. Be conscience of how you are acting because it really isn’t only effecting yourself, it IS effecting others around you. Today, i realized how human beings mirror each other and how each situation has a reaction from each individual but how you choose to handle it is up to you. I thought soooooo much today about other peoples perspectives today, that ive come to the acceptance and appreciation of all the things that are going to happen to me and have happened to me. Nothing but what I do is in my control and that is forever how I will live. I will take control of my life as of today. HELLLLLL YEEE <3

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First day of sex with Kai <3

Hehe well today kai and I just hung out and chilled with his friend Mikey and then went to 4s and chilled out at kai’s house. We put on a movie (Dead End) and were cuddling together on the bed in the most comfortable position ever and we started kissing and he starts fingering me and I give him a hand-job at the same time. Then he asked me if I wanted to have sex and I said yes, then we did. We did for about 15 minutes, and of course it was awesomeeeee(: We just looked at each other while we were having sex and kissing and it was sooo sweet and perfect. I love him soooo much it kinda is a mind fuck sometimes. We kept having sex and then he stopped me to eat me out. And then I gave him head and we just started cuddling again. I was suppose to be home at 10, but it was like 10:13, and i said to kai “Oh shit, i was suppose to be home 13 minutes ago” and he just starts fingering me………… why is he so perfect. loooolllll. <3 

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All I did today..

Was get my nails done, tan, eat, and sleep. 

My phone conversation with Kai made my nightt <3 He makes me soo happy, its crazy. Who knew that I could ever love someone this muchh. 

Tomorrow he’s coming over in the morning and we’re gonna just chill at my house, get some lunch, spend the day together. hehehe, its perfectly planned out.

So manyy great things ahead. I just really hope nothing else crazy happens that will cause chaos. 

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